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[Tuesday
February 20th, 2007] |
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Soo...things have been pretty good lately I suppose. I'm stressed beyond all comprehension [mostly thanks to Coach Denny] I have no idea how I'm going to memorize an entire essay!? who knows?! oh well. I'm not too concerned really. Valentines Day was amazing too, by the way. I woke up at 5:15 and went to go get Christopher breakfast and then I drove over to his house and decorated his car and went up to his room and kissed him on the cheek to wake him up at his normal time to wake up. =] I got him some candy too and a WoW tshirt and I made him cookies. He definitely got me a white gold, diamond necklace from Zales.
I loooooveee that necklace so much. It's stupendous.
I'm really happy I have found someone like Christopher. It's like we just...fit [contrart to what Mr. Holland may say]. I guess? That sounds incredibly cheesy...but oh well. I've never found someone that I have been able to be just myself without acting like anything I'm not. I don't know. I was hanging out with a group of people for a while and I guess I still am...but I just didn't feel like I fit in really. I am pretty good friends with Jessica. If someone asked who my best friend that is a girl is, it would be her.
My mom is making me aggravated. She acts as if I do abosolutely nothing around the house and that I choose to be gone for school related things. ugh. lame. I don't want to go 90% of the time, but I do anyways because I know I need to. I just feel so bogged down by everything with school. Lame. Oh well. i need to get the SGA camera working/tapes for it too for districts this weekend.
Oh, I'm still sick. The medicine isn't working. Nothing has changed there. Big surprise, huh?
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[Tuesday
February 6th, 2007] |
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I'm afraid. I really am. ='[
I don't know what to do.
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[Thursday
January 11th, 2007] |
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welllll, I suppose things are going pretty well. Things could be better with my parents, but whatever. Things are great with Christopher still. He really is one of the nicest guys I've ever met. I mean, at first, yeah he may seem to be a little rude or mean...but it's just because he's is so shy. I didn't even think he liked me when we first met. I was pretty wrong. haha. He's been there for me anytime I was even beginning to have a bad day. He's also incredibly loyal/protective. I love it. He said something when that Sterlin guy was being a douchebag on the Pace High forum. This Saturday we're going to the mall and spending pretty much the entire day together since my dad is out of town and it is his weekend. Oh! We kind of hit each other =\ Good thing his car is good..but mine has a hole in it. I couldn't see out my back window and he thought I had seen him when I was backing out...I hadn't. So I hit the side of his truck and it messed up the back end of my car. It's all good though. =[ Stupid Saturns made from plastic...I mean what is that about? His truck isn't so bad. My car is just getting messed up right and left. Someone ran into the front of my car and now the hood doesn't fit correctly. Laaaammeee. Oh well, at least that isn't THAT bad. I'm hoping to get a new car for graduation/next year sometime. I could live without a new computer...but there is no way my car is making it all the way to gainsville. I'm finally being medicated for my health problems. Thank god. I needed it. =]
well, this is sufficiently boring. I'm going to go watch Grey's Anatomy and then call my love. ♥
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[Sunday
January 7th, 2007] |
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thinga have been stupendous lately. amazing. fantastic. everything is good. I like my new classes. I have lunch/classes with all of my friends... of course I don't have any classes with Christopher, but you know. He's in all the super-smart classes. haha. Whatever. We see each other a lot anyways. =] Almost all of my womanly problems have been worked out. Thank god. Being on your period for four months is not very fun whatsoever. I still don't know if they're treating me for anemia, but oh well. At least I'm getting medicated for the other things that are wrong. I wish I could find my ddr cd. I want to play it. ughhh. blah blah blah. I'm bored. I think I'm going to go do other things. bye.
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[Tuesday
December 26th, 2006] |
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soo. Heh. Things have been pretty awesome lately. Nothing has gone wrong really I guess. Hm, I don't know. The entire health issues are still going on and I'm still not being medicated, but eventually hopefully things will work themselves out. I went to go get the MRI [because they thought I had prolactinoma which is basically a benign tumor on your brain in the portion that controls hormones] but I don't have a brain tumor...which is good news don't get me wrong, but at least prolactinoma was treatable and so is the polycystic ovarian disease [which they are positive I have] Now I guess that they don't know why my prolactin levels are so high so they don't know exactly what is going on, but it's okay. =] Christopher has been really supportive throughout the entire thing. He drove me anywhere I wanted the week that they thought I had the prolactinoma [because I had doctor's orders that I couldn't drive in case I did have the brain tumor because it effects the peripheral vision] I know it's not really a HUGE deal or anything, but I was pretty tore up about it when I found out that it's going to be hard to get pregnant if I can get pregnant at all. I mean, I know this is at least 10 years from now...but it's hard to think that I may not be a soccer mom. It's okay though. I get headaches about once a day and I'm tired constantly and pretty hormonal, but things will be good soon enough. =]
I actually had a pretty good Christmas. I loved Katie's party...I definitely had a blast. =] I'm pretty excited about hanging out with my friends and stuff for these next few days [I can drive again =D] Christopher is gone for the next few more days. He has been in Panama City with his family, but we're spending New Years Eve together. =]
Soo. I loved all my gifts too. I got a Motorola Razr, a Dooney and Bourke Purse, a top-of-the-line car stereo system, car seat covers [those things are flipping expensive], jewelery, about $350, cute keychains, a memory stick for my camera, and a bunch of other little things. I think I was most excited about the purse and the Razr. I definitely wanted a cell phone and my purse was slowly falling apart.
I'm really dreading going back to school. It just drains me now. =[ I got a 89.1 in physics. Lame. First B in high school....oh well. I'll live.
ily. =]
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[Wednesday
December 13th, 2006] |
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Sooo. I have good news and bad news.
good news: I don't think I'm anemic...I may be, who knows? I definitely have other health issues, but the doctors said it's all treatable. Blah. It's all good either way though. Plus, I have the most amazing boyfriend ever. He's driving me to school since I have doctor's orders not to drive for God knows how long. =[ ....but this means we get to spend more time together, so that's good. [I'm looking at the bright side of things here]
the list of bad news is too long to type.
at least I'm happy for the most part. =D
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[Tuesday
December 12th, 2006] |
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I guess this will be one of my few public entries. So...things have been pretty dang great lately. I mean, sure I get migranes like once a day and I feel like crap pretty much 24/7, but maybe I'll get meds for that tomorrow? hopefully. 3 months is long enough to feel like this. I'm a bit worried about the lab results and what is actually wrong with me, but I guess there isn't much I could do about it. Things have been looking up lately anyways. I'm dating Chris Floyd [who is absolutely amazing] He's taking me to go see the christmas lights Thursday or Friday. eek. =D I also got a 96 on my physics test. =D finally I made an A. certain people have been ticking me off lately, but oh well. hm. I'm cold, but then again I'm always cold.
Well, I'm off to go talk to my beau. =]
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[Sunday
November 26th, 2006] |
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so. I love life.
I'm happier now than I have been in a long time.
karma sucks [for you] by the way. hahaha.
Oh, and last night I had one of the craziest nights I've had in QUITE a while.
=DDD
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[Sunday
November 5th, 2006] |
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( mhm. first REAL surgery )
I used an old shirt from CATO that looked ugly on me and a little bit of black felt to line it so it wouldn't be scratched. It took like 30 minutes [mostly because I SUCK at hand-sewing...but yeah.]
I used my own design, so I'm pretty proud of it. I couldn't really find a tutorial I was crazy about, so I just improvised. =]
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[Monday
October 9th, 2006] |
Hm. I'm pretty discouraged anyone reads this, so leave something about what you think about me.
I don't care if it's anonymous or not.
constructive critisizm is preffered over rude comments, please =]
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[Monday
August 21st, 2006] |
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mmk. well, I have to freaking stay home and clean all friday night which means that I won't be able to see if a certain someone wants to hang out. I saw him today and he seemed pretty excited to come talk to me when he saw me =] uhg. he's so cute. haha. I still need to find a way to get him to ask for my number or give it to him somehow. eek. I'm really excited about this.
Welll swing elections tomorrow. Apparently Justin isn't running for president...which leaves that position open =] I have my posse of girls that will threaten the freshmen into picking me. hah.
hopefully I can see Geoffery after school again tomorrow. He probably has practice...which means he'll be out at 3:30. I know that makes me sound totally lame or whatever...but I don't care.
yayy.
wellll. We got back out Calculus tests. There was I think 1 A, 2 B's, 1 C, and all the rest were F's. I thought I failed....but I got the only A. haha. It was a freaking 91 and Mr. Waddell is making me take the test over with the rest of the class which means that if I do worse then I get the worse grade. I hope I won't, but you know. I have a physics test too. I hate that class because it's so boring but I like who is in that class ;] Curtis is going to freaking kill me by talking too loud. I have blushed more in the past day than like the past week. thanks Curtis.
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[Saturday
August 19th, 2006] |
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Wellllll. I finally am online. I've had to spend the past forever with Connor =\ It wasn't SO bad. Last night we went to the football game. I had SO much fun. All we did was yell and scream and dance. haha. =] Plus, there were five half naked boys right behind me =]. lol. Nick belted out the alma mater .he sounded like a dying cow. haha. I hung out with a bunch of SGA people and casually "had to go to the bathroom" as a certain someone that's in my physics class walked by. haha. It was pretty funny. Erica was looking down at me and laughing when I like timed it perfectly. It was pretty great. haha. Then I came home and talked to Saavedra and he told me more top secret good news =]
Tonight Brittany, me, Becca, and Kim [and probably some other ladies =D] are going to the movies. It will be funnnnn =]]]]] I'm excited.
yayayayyayayayayayayy. I've had such a good time lately. Call me and we can definitely hang. love!
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[Thursday
June 22nd, 2006] |
Um...so yeah I haven't updated in quite a while.
soo....Justin and I FINALLY had our one year anniversary as of Father's Day =] [Yes, we have gotten over that entire rough-patch thing and we get along better than ever and we are closer than ever. =] I really do love him so much =D]We ended up going to the zoo and having a blast [of course, my little brother had to tag along, but oh well] We went out to eat at Okki and I am now absolutely broke. Today we payed for chikfila with nothing but coins from my coin purse. Haha. We have had VBS everyday this week and it is exhausting. I LOVE the little preschoolers, but they are most defintely taxing. Haha.
Katie and Brittany are off at yearbook camp, but at leastI still have Bailey =]
Oh! I was made the head of the "spread the word" committee in SGA...AND I was given a men-tee [I'm the mentor] of Kyle Kemp. =]
Well, I was supposed to update ....and I did.
I love you Mr. Wells.
oh, and I recently fell in love with a giraffe.
( click to see some giraffe luvin'! )
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[Monday
April 24th, 2006] |
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Do you know that feeling when you want something so bad that you can't have?
I love hate rejection.
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[Saturday
April 22nd, 2006] |
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David Crowder Band- Be Lifted Hope Rising |
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Girl: hey
Guy: hey, will you go out with me?
Girl: *blush* yeah!
**one week later**
Girl: OMGSH I love himm with all my heart and I can't wait until we get married and have babies and you're my soulmate and I'm so glad we didn't rush things [with me being a whore and all]. LOLZZZZ
does that ever get on anyone's nerves...or is it just me? Girls have lowered their standards and moral values....or maybe only very few of us had them to begin with...? Myspace really brings out the slut in some people.
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[Thursday
March 23rd, 2006] |
I've gained friends
and I've lost them.
I've cried for hours
and I've laughed uncontrollably.
...and in the end, I'm better off.
I've grown close to the people I can truely call my friends.
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[Sunday
March 19th, 2006] |
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I feel betrayed, but maybe that's because I was.
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[Friday
March 17th, 2006] |
write what you think about me.
something youve wanted to tell me.
anything.
in a comment. annonymous or not.
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[Tuesday
March 14th, 2006] |
I don't like me.
call me and talk to me.
I miss Justin.
I miss Jacob.
I miss Andrew.
I miss Katie.
I miss Brittany.
I miss feeling good enough.
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[Tuesday
March 14th, 2006] |
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So yeah, things have been okay lately I guess. I haven't gotten a chance to talk to Katie or Brittany because we're going out of town and we're remodeling or whatever. Justin has been out of town since Sunday so I've talked to him once or like 5 minutes. I'm just glad I have Wayne and Andrew to talk to. I've been cleaning nonstop since Sunday. It pretty much sucks...but whatever.
My parents said they're moving sometime and they can't assure it won't be before I graduate...but whatever. The people I mentioned above are probably the only people that would actually care.
My mom was pissing me off earlier. She acts like she knows more about what goes on between me and my friends than I know. She doesn't know anything about it and she's been acting like she does. LAME! She acts like all I care about is Justin which is NOT true. I stay in touch with my friends. I call Katie like 3 times a week and we talk and I talk to Andrew everyday basically.
No one ever comments so yeah. I don't even think anyone reads this. I'm thinking about deleting it.
EDIT: You know, maybe I just haven't found my niche yet. I thought I had, and I guess I just haven't found it. I'm not comfortable with half the things that 99% of my school does. Maybe I'm sort of a goody-goody? I guess that's not necessarily a bad thing. I just don't really want to put myself in a situation that I wouldn't like. So I guess I'm okay with it. It's part of my personality and no one can do anything about that. I don't think I'm willing to sacrifice my beliefs and moral values in able to "fit in" with people I probably won't even be associated with three years from now.
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